Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009

I'm guessing there will be a lot of retrospective posts today in Bloggyville.
Not here.
Not that 2009 was a particularly awful year, but I'm happy to see the back end of it.
Just...
Hoping 2010 exceeds my expectations.  
[Which, since I have none, is a good possibility.]
Looking forward isn't something I'm particularly good at any more.
I've lost the optimistic spirit that's inherent in youth.
I'd like it back please.
Because attitude is half the battle.
So an upbeat attitude would be helpful
in the year to come.
It would make slight annoyances seem like
nothing.
And bigger problems would dissolve into
slight annoyances,
that irritate but don't dibilitate.
Joy could be found in smaller and smaller and smaller things.
Like what I experienced last night looking at rough cut, polished stones in brilliant greens and blues and pinks.
I want a clean house to satisfy my inner neat freak.
And not just think about how hard it is to keep it clean.
It would be nice to savor the food I eat
and not fear it will cause gastrointestinal stress that takes the joy right out of eating.
(just keeping it real here)
Maybe get beyond what I call kindergarten Spanish
and carry on conversations about meaningful things.
Adapt better to the schedule and learn to stay up late without it
completely wiping me out and making me useless the next day.
Have more energy to go beyond the basics
and do more than what's absolutely necessary.
It's been a while since that has happened.
Yes, a little optimism would be helpful.
And appreciated.
Not only by me.
I'm sure it would make my husband happy too.
2009 was a year of simply getting by.
Getting through.
I'd like 2010 to be more.
Please God.

7 comments:

sara said...

I'm with you Kim. I am happy to see 2009 go bye bye!

However for some of your hopes (being able to stay up late and not get wiped out), I think you need more than optimism...maybe a fountain of youth?! Ha!

Happy New Year to you!!!

Mari said...

Good things to hope for! I think I need that fountain of youth too!

rita said...

A powerful prayer/post, honest appraisal and longing.
I got stuck on "bigger problems dissolve into slight annoyances, that irritate but don't debilitate."
May be 'cause of the last word being so connected to Spanish 'd├ębil'= weak.
BTW, Mother has expressed awe at how you have entered into the culture (not in those words, my summary of her feelings). You've learned more than she ever did in one year.
Kindergarten? You've got to be kidding! Now, Tina, she is probably in K, right?
Why does it have to take forever to feel comfortable with a new language??? Kayla is about to give up after one semester. I say, Please don't! Maybe I should promise her a trip to Argentina if she hangs in there.
I love the new Project 365 button, Amaia is in the top middle pic! And she's coming back in 2010!
Love ya', Kim!
Wishing you optimal (?) blessings in 2010, i.e. the blessing of OPTIMISM!

skoots1mom said...

praying many blessings for 2010, JubiSista!

Mary Witzl said...

This post made me smile and nod. That positive attitude gets harder and harder to keep going the older I get, but oddly enough, it is all the more important. When I was younger, I don't think I appreciated it enough.

I always tell myself I have no expectations, but I'm just fooling myself. They're always hiding in there somewhere, surprising me whenever I'm let down. One of these days, I'm hoping they'll be met, thereby having the last laugh.

Mary Witzl said...

(Happy 2010 to you, by the way!)

Justin Narin said...

What a wonderful blog post. Happy New Year! :)

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